Thursday, September 20, 2018

For Raja

I don’t know how to live without dogs.
My spirit needs
bad manners
unrestrained joy
eyes full of trust
cold noses in the morning


As a little girl
I would whisper future plans
into a wolf dogs lazy ear
we’d both smile
in the way that animals do
teeth bared to everyone
but the pack


My dog and I don’t lie to each other.
I tell her secrets and
She tells me she wants more
breakfast


I tell her
today
we will be putting you down
the same way I wanted to put myself down
all those years ago
but we got through that
together.
Remember that, girl?
good girl
good girl


Dogs will teach you everything
you need to know
about how to love
they will not exaggerate
their dedication
they will love you exactly
as you deserve


What happens to the dog
when the little girl grows up?
Stops tying bandanas and bows
around furry head
invites boys into her bed instead


the girl goes on
needing her dog
and her dog waits for her to come home.


So now I take care of her
the way she always took care of me
and I try to love others
the way she always loved me


A dog will die today
just like every day.
It doesn’t feel like every day
to me.


What happens to the girl
when the dog dies?


the girl goes on
needing her dog
and her dog waits for her to come home.